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Thinking in the Dark

Sun, 19 Mar 2006 00:11:13 GMT

WOW it's been too long! Right!

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...Dropped my bestfriend & My boyfriend like a bad habit. Made New friends.Moved in with my father. Did a few shows.Starting doing G-Rap on 107.9. Got all F's on my grade card. Lost my english book. Found out I'm not getting a car.

My Point

Well my days are always way up and the next way down. Nothing is ever consistant in my life, well at the moment. My so-called boyfriend, stood me up, we had a movie date and well niggah was ghost, but the day before I had a blast with my posse. See after my so-called pulling the weekly stunt, and my father never following through on his promises, I've come to the harsh conclusion that men can't be trusted no matter status. Not all guys are bad guys they say, but I have yet to be proven other wise. Look at my point of view, if you can't trust your own father, how can you trust anyone else. My dad is the reason for all the corrupt in my life. I don't want to detail, so use your imagination. And so because of the dead beat men in my life I'm wasting a perfect rainy day resurrecting my Xanga, and playing The first Cut's the Deepest and Hey There Delilah over and over again, cuz my Pillow Talk(Doris Day & Old but Goody) DVD won't work....But look on the Bright side you may say...At least I LOOK FLY doing it!

-Jasmine

Go Shocks!

Island in the Sun

Fri, 30 Dec 2005 17:21:55 GMT

Okay, well I decided to update.I'm on the ship, it's amazing.I'm in Belize City, Belize right now, i should be getting off the ship soon, to buy uber amount of Necklaces.I'm syked about comiong home.Jessica I see you!We gotta hang out.Ummm, Everybody I miss yall.I hope that nobody is having too much fun without being I'm the life of the party.I'll update on the specifics of my trip soon as my minuets aren't 50cents each.

Good News, I met Number 4.His name is Issac.He's 18, goes to the University of Colorado.His daddy is as professional Comedian.He's real fly, philosophical, deep minded and loves getting crunk.I'll get deeper ingto him as well...Also I met as girl name Jen who is bananas, she reminds me of a lil me, minus alcoholism!

Love you All, like yall even check this!

Jasmine

I'll be home Jan.2.

Oh yeah, http://www.1079jamz.com ...my radio show starts the 7th Holla!

Umm..Then there's Three

Mon, 19 Dec 2005 17:00:28 GMT

Okay..I found my un-official Number 3.Named Que.He's awesome.He's fly, I'm mean completely my type.He's really cute.He's in school and has a job.He loves music and he's sweet, he asked if I needed help 5 times within 15 mins.when I was at best buy.If that isn't love at first site what is.So I got the digits.We have a music date Tomorrow.Maybe.Yay!

I leave for my nine day Thursday.I get on the cruise friday morning.My christmas begins tonight.I get my computer, and wednesday I get everything else.

Boyfriend #1 is mad.Number 3 aund Number 1 work together, not my intentions.Number 1 is over reacting a smidge.It's not like I was cheating, yet.We're just friend for now.It's not my fault number 1 pick sunday to confess his deepest feelings for me.

I hate my JROTC Uniform, it makes me feel ugly.I hate to reminded that I'm no Halle Barry...

Jasmine

I hope I don't get caught.If I have to I'll leave 1 and 2 for 3, and then in a year I'll marry 1 because um, we were born to be together.YEAH FUCKING RIGHT! he just wants my sweet virgin ass so he can go back to being a whore!

I'm Glowing!

Tue, 13 Dec 2005 23:51:43 GMT

Welll....I got a phone call from one of the top Fashion Schools in the Nation interested in me attending there.The admissions department is even writing me an acceptance letter. I'm excited.After I think I'm okay and all good, my Mother has a change of heart so just when you think Dorthy has left Kansas another Tornado kicks me right back.Bummer, It's a Bitch!

My last performance a week ago was Bananaz...I enjoyed myself too much.I didn't leave the dancefloor.For the next few weeks, Clubhouse is going to be recooping, writing new songs, upping our performance presentation.I'm excited about the new year.

I got a cruise in a week, I'm so amped, I'm ready to eat all day, and be on somebody's beach.We're going for 9 days and leaving from Galveston, Yay!

So I got a new boyfriend, Thomas, he's a sweet hear.I love him! Not that serious, he's just a breath of fresh air, bring back a good clean sense of humor and manors.He treats me like a princess.Around him I can be myself and it doesn't feel like he has an alterior motive, like he is ultimatley interested in what I want, I'm in Bliss, I'm glowing.Did I mention he got money, both his parents are doctors..his father is a freaking Orthodotist.But I'm not after the money at all. I really care about him, matter of fact I'm going to see him yell lead tonight.Yay!

Jasmine
Me and Lynsey and Trissy are back together!

Been Gone For Awhile

Wed, 07 Dec 2005 17:29:45 GMT

Okay..well I'm sitting at home..I'm exhausted for real.I need to learn how to balance all this that I do, which is possible.I need to stop being lazy and you know, do what i need to do....

So I had a show last thursday, I remixed my signature song, "Only Fly Needs Reply"...we killed last week.The crowd was real intimate, had my feeling like Unplugged, My Life and Rhymes..I really enjoyed myself.

Saturday went to KSTATE, I really like it there.I went to the Black and Gold pageant(College equivilence to Fashionetta)one word, interesting A lot of hawt guys, dude was fly.A guy from here came with us, and we got very aquainted.He kept me company on the ride back to the ICT, also he let me lay on his lap to sleep.He's a sweet heart....we have a date on Saturday/

I have a boyfriend...umm, i'm thrilled syked, whatever.I like him a lot, more than I want to admit to anybody..I just feel like he can do better, something I don't like to admit, because I can't give him everything, and with the saying,"What I won't do, somebody else will", I don't want to be setting myself up to be hurt.

Had court today....Long, boring, and time consuming.

Jasmine
I'm so Faithful<3<3<3

Hip Rock Friday

Sat, 26 Nov 2005 19:43:33 GMT

Last night was Great.....I did my show at Club Key West.I am officially Clubhouse.I went through some shit, but it mad me stronger and appreciate everything.During my set, I messed up horribly, but I made a mad come back, that show'd that I'm perfessional about it.I had so much fun on stage, I can't wait till I get a deal so I can rock a big crowd. Tommy was real proud of me, I was proud of the whole team.

Before the show was Crazy.of course I went to Walmar at 5am hoping to get a computer like half of wichita.Then bestbuy, crazy in itself.Then I went and stood in line at office max til 6 just to find out that you had the order the computer and that would be almost $700 for the &349 advertised...Circuit City didn't have shit.Best buy had cd's like I didn't want or already had, but they did have a large surplus of 50cent cds and Madonna.Got a black Tee at Gordmans, I ended up wearing it.

Anyways before the show, went to Ducky's she found out I was semi- vegetarian when i turned down her ham.She gave me a dinner roll(I had 6 of my mama on Thanksgiving cuz I didn't like anything they made, that was a bummer, but rolls are good), that was gross, Dr.Pepper makes anything taste better though.Picked up big speakers from Ulick that didn't really fit in Tommy's saturn.Listen to Kanye, Went to the mall.Tommy bought a hoodie at Hot Topic, they played Kanye, ironically...Duckey for got to tell us we were meeting at a different place, so we wasted time going to her house back to twist's.Communication.grrr.

So the outcome....I perform every Thurday, It's hip Rock night.I'm excited.You can find me in the club...you know the song.

-Jasmine

Hmmm, everybody shouldn't dance.

Thanksgiving Day Parade

Thu, 24 Nov 2005 16:56:14 GMT

Happy

Thanksgiving!

Well, I'm thankful for a lot. I've been through some shit these two years, and I'm happy that God has delievered me through that obstacle, and giving me another chance.I'm thankful for my family and my friends, when it comes down to it, i have the greatest friends and relatives, referring to the ones who are really around when I need em.I'm thankful for Geto-Soul, for helping me become the best producer and Clubhouse ENT. for treating me like one of the them, and giving me these opportunities to express myself musically. I thankful just to be in the position I'm in, finacially secure, even though I'm not rich, but I'm satisfied that I have what I need, also I have so much opportiunity coming, just for having goals and wanting to succed.Fashionetta, I was so greatful just for the experience even if I didn't win.Now I'm going to have my first gig and I'm a contestant to be a host on a radio show, that is dope shit. Me on the radio starting January.I thank God and hopefully he'll keep blessing me.

I'm kinda talking to a guy that goes to Emporia State, I don't really like him, he's lazy when it comes to spending time, plus, we don't really have much in common.

-Jasmine
No Sleep Til Brooklyn....2years and counting til I live in the NYC!

Monday, November 21, 2005

Mon, 21 Nov 2005 22:42:58 GMT

So my Xanga has officially my home to whine about some of the most petty, but life shattering moments.......

I'm starting to feel a little out of place and left out in the posse.It's not them, it's pretty much me. I don't know, I feel like maybe I'm alienating myself from them. I don't really feel like I fit in with them. For one, I'm the only one who can't share stories of my most recent romance. Which seems to be the topic on their tongues now a days. Either it's Lynsey and T or it's mike and Trissy, hoping to bring comic relief, or to even feel part of the conversation, I talk about my love for BOB, which is my guitar, and BOB meaning Black On Black. hmmm. And now because I don't have a significent other, I feel as if I'm not interesting. My jokes have become tired, and my lesbian encounters have went from funny to "I wish she would stop talking about gay people". No longer am I the comedian. If I'm not funny anymore, what am I really? All I have is jokes. Though I hate to admit it, I'm farely sensitive, and I take to heart the more time Trissy and Lynsey spend time, as suggesting maybe three is a crowd.Maybe I'm over reacting. Seriously. I'm very distrot. I'm becoming very annoying, especially when I'm blaming them for nothing at all, just to get an arousal out of them, an escapgoat for my misery. Really I wish it was how it use to be. Friday Nights. SleepOvers.Thing haven't been the same since Rudy' party in my opinion, my first taste of being the third wheel.I can't blame Lynsey, for you know, being happy, but it's frustrating when I'm no longer the center of attention in anybody's life but own, and for once I have no input, so yes I became more critical.
I'm sorry for all my shit last week.

-Jasmine
Why am I always in the constant need to explain myself?

Friday, November 18, 2005

Fri, 18 Nov 2005 04:27:48 GMT

CLUBHOUSE ENT.

presents

Hip-Rock

Friday, November 25

10pm-12pm

@Club Key West (East Maple and West)

21+

Featuring

High Class Entertainment
Mr.Billistic
Sprout
Lyrical Politicians
Dj Loco

______________________________________________________

This is What's going down next Friday at Club Key West.The club is known for it's Heavy Metal, but my label, Clubhouse Entertainment as well as our other guest are going to introduce Hip-Rock, Rap with Rock N Roll influence, real dope shit.

I'm so happy. Tonight I auditioned so we can get the opportunity.We all did a joint then, Ducky, Tommy and Tyler did their joint.I killed that shit as usual. Mostly I'm estatic because

ME,I'M 17,PERFORMING AT A 21

AND UP CLUB, WITHOUT NO PROBLEM.WHILE YALL ARE

CHILLING AT HOME OR DOING THE PARTY SCENE, I'M IN A

CLUB GETING PAID.WHILE YALL ARE SLEEP I'M PARTYING

LIKE A ROCKSTAR, FREAKING ON MY GRIND TIL 3AM

.I'ma have studio all week, insain but it should be fun.

Today, spite whatever me and Lynsey were going through, it was a good day.Plus I found out this fly ass dude name Smooth has a crush on me.It's cute.Hmm, almost forgot what it's like to have one of those.

-Jazmin

Did I mention, Ducky is The Lesbian of the group.She's a hot spitter never the less.Maybe I won't be so homophobic any more.Just gotta get pass those sexual lyrics of hers.I'm happy the beats are hot.

Wednesday, November 16, 2005

Wed, 16 Nov 2005 15:51:05 GMT

Hmmmm.

Last night was different.I had one of those dramatic, everything makes me cry nights...

I tried out for basketball, got cut, but I was sad over that, i guess I can really get a job, or hey that radio thing is coming up as well...

Ummm.

This might be a lil petty, but I'm disappointed with a particular indivisual.She might see it as me being a hater again.Whatever! Yesturday, I really wanted her to participate in Mix-it up day(A day created to get out your comfort zone and mix up with other groups.)she said no, I would't have been as mad if she was actually doing something productive, but she didn't want to hang out with me, because she'd rather stand by her man.No literally stand there.This just made me think, she only want to hang out/talk to me when her boyfriend is ignoring her, or if he's not around.Reminds me alot of my relationship with me father, except golf is his passion, and overweight white women.This also remind me of my last "so called bestfriend", she only wanted to spend the night to go to parties I was invited to, then she spent the whole night worrying if she was gonna get caught....

So With that....it's all up to her to realize why we're drifting apart.Maybe she'll see it.Really at this point I don't care anymore, it just sucks major that I could be losing a friend because they'd rather be hugged up with some"nigga"then be a friend at times when i really need them.(A reason I did cry, i hate losing a bestfriend, last time I was depressed for a month).

-Jasmine

People question why I am more consumed with my music more than relationships, or why I'd rather be alone.It's the only thing I know will never leave me, and the world is overrated.